Done and done! :)
I kicked the chair after I couldn't do the decline push ups. And I got SUPER frustrated with Ab Ripper X. I quit half way through for that reason and T woke from his nap and was not a fan of being in the basement. I am planning to attempt it again later tonight.
But, I tried! Chest and back is done. Plyometrics tomorrow.
Thursday, April 26, 2012
One and Done?
That's probably what you all think of me. I'm one and done. I worked out once and now I'm done. In all honesty, I have no idea what my major malfunction is. I felt amazing after Sculpt1-2 last week. I never got Sweat1-2 in. Oy vey...
Today I start over. Again.
Today I start over. Again.
Speaks volumes to me. I should print that picture out and hang it everywhere in my place.
I'm starting over; however, not with Power90. I'm going for it. I'm going all in. P90X. That's right, P90X. THE P90X. I have to prove it to myself that I can do something with myself..... And finish it! Summer is getting closer and closer, which means I will start getting hot in jeans and tshirts and hoodies. I'm eventually going to need to fit my fat butt into some shorts and a tank top. The way I look now, I won't be doing that. I won't subject the kind people of Cape Cod to that awful sight. So, I'm going to make myself summer ready.
Starting today with Shoulders and Arms.
Day 1 of 90. Here we go!
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Sweat.
"I would rather be covered in sweat at the gym than covered in clothes at the beach"
I saw this quote on Pinterest early this morning. I took Tristan to the beach today. It is absolutely GORGEOUS outside. Upper 70s, sunshine, a few clouds to break it up just enough, on the beach there was a nice breeze to cool off the sun..... PERFECTION. And I was hot as hell because I was wearing capris and a t-shirt. I could've been in a bathing suit today, or at least shorts and a tank top. But no, I'm too fat and gross to subject the public to that.
There is no greater motivation than that feeling I felt today.
So, we got home from the beach and Tristan went straight to bed. I had a lunch of tuna salad on two mini whole wheat bagels with 1/2 slice of fat free american cheese on each sandwich, with a side of SkinnyPop popcorn (my new favorite!!). Then I started reading for school on the deck. All I could think of was how I could be doing this in a bathing suit catching some sun, instead I was sweating.... again. So, instead of whining about it anymore I got up off my ass. Tied my still too new looking sneaks on my feet, grabbed Power90, grabbed my dumbells from my car and headed to the basement. I let Tony Horton have his way with me. It hurt to walk back up the stairs from that workout, I needed two hands to hold my cup of water, and it hurts to type right now. AND I LOVE IT.
SWEAT.
I saw this quote on Pinterest early this morning. I took Tristan to the beach today. It is absolutely GORGEOUS outside. Upper 70s, sunshine, a few clouds to break it up just enough, on the beach there was a nice breeze to cool off the sun..... PERFECTION. And I was hot as hell because I was wearing capris and a t-shirt. I could've been in a bathing suit today, or at least shorts and a tank top. But no, I'm too fat and gross to subject the public to that.
There is no greater motivation than that feeling I felt today.
So, we got home from the beach and Tristan went straight to bed. I had a lunch of tuna salad on two mini whole wheat bagels with 1/2 slice of fat free american cheese on each sandwich, with a side of SkinnyPop popcorn (my new favorite!!). Then I started reading for school on the deck. All I could think of was how I could be doing this in a bathing suit catching some sun, instead I was sweating.... again. So, instead of whining about it anymore I got up off my ass. Tied my still too new looking sneaks on my feet, grabbed Power90, grabbed my dumbells from my car and headed to the basement. I let Tony Horton have his way with me. It hurt to walk back up the stairs from that workout, I needed two hands to hold my cup of water, and it hurts to type right now. AND I LOVE IT.
SWEAT.
90 days from today is July. That is half way through summer. I have to push hard. I need results soon. I'll be using our treadmill as well as Power90.
I'm going to decorate our basement with an old bikini, a pair of shorts, and the pair of jeans I'm determined to wear again.
NO EXCUSES.
<3
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Well..
So, you may be wanting to ask me, "How are the workouts going, Lauren?" Well..
They're not.
Excuses. Yesterday we went to the Zooquarium with Tristan (super fun, by the way!) We all had a blast. Then we went to the beach. It was gorgeous. We all took our shoes off and put our feet in the water. Tristan thought it was a great idea to put his face in the water. I'm a proud Mommy because he is usually a sissy about stuff like that and when it comes to the ocean, I don't need to have a sissy. I LOVE swimming in the deep blue. ;) Anyway, we came home and sat on our bums for a while while Tristan napped (my designated workout time..... oops.) and ordered lunch. Oops. Pizza. It was delish, though. No lie. We couldn't take sitting anymore so we walked the mall and wore the little guy out some more.
Today is supposed to be another gorgeous day and even warmer than yesterday. I'll probably try to find a walking trail and take Tristan out again. The only problem is this: he hates being stuck in a stroller. He's an explorer, especially outside. So, walking at a toddler's pace is doing nothing for losing weight. Okay, it's better than sitting on the couch, but I'm not working up a sweat and getting my heart pumping.
Luke took a picture of me yesterday. I saved it on the computer and titled it, "Sick.jpg"
Sick.
They're not.
Excuses. Yesterday we went to the Zooquarium with Tristan (super fun, by the way!) We all had a blast. Then we went to the beach. It was gorgeous. We all took our shoes off and put our feet in the water. Tristan thought it was a great idea to put his face in the water. I'm a proud Mommy because he is usually a sissy about stuff like that and when it comes to the ocean, I don't need to have a sissy. I LOVE swimming in the deep blue. ;) Anyway, we came home and sat on our bums for a while while Tristan napped (my designated workout time..... oops.) and ordered lunch. Oops. Pizza. It was delish, though. No lie. We couldn't take sitting anymore so we walked the mall and wore the little guy out some more.
Today is supposed to be another gorgeous day and even warmer than yesterday. I'll probably try to find a walking trail and take Tristan out again. The only problem is this: he hates being stuck in a stroller. He's an explorer, especially outside. So, walking at a toddler's pace is doing nothing for losing weight. Okay, it's better than sitting on the couch, but I'm not working up a sweat and getting my heart pumping.
Luke took a picture of me yesterday. I saved it on the computer and titled it, "Sick.jpg"
Sick.
See? Sick. Sure, I'm not obese, but I sure do feel like it. So all of that said....
1. I'm going to find a walking trail today and take Tristan for a walk.
2. I'm going to workout during his nap time. No excuses.
3. I'm going to eat healthy and drink water.
Three goals for today. Attainable.
<3
Friday, April 13, 2012
Day 1.
Day 1 of 90.... For this challenge at least. On a cheesier note: day 1 of the rest of my life. Now that the corniness is out of the way.....
Weight: 173.2
Goal weight: ??? -- I just want to be healthy and happy in my own skin. I want my clothes to fit better and I want to be thrilled to try on a top and not dread whether or not it will fit. The number in my head is 130, but we will find out whether or not that is attainable. For now my goal weight is: 159. Get me into the 150s and I'll feel better. ;) New goal weight after that is met. Baby steps.
Short term goals:
1. Get through the first 30 days of Power90.
2. Have to buy a new pair of jeans because my jeans got too big rather than too small.
3. Lessen soda intake.
4. Drink more water.
5. Lose the first 15 pounds.
You're probably thinking, "Really? Five short term goals seems like a lot.." Nope. All or nothing. And they are simple things. :)
Long term goals (For Power90 time period):
1. Finish Power90. ALL 90 DAYS!
2. Fit my favorite Jimmy'z jeans. (They're an 8. I'm in a 12 now. Totally doable... May even need to break out the AE 6's! ;) There's some wishful thinking, eh?)
3. Wear a bathing suit with confidence.... In public.
Totally can meet those goals. Long term right now is 90 days. I will feel more confident that I can meet them if they are more like short term goals with more time. ;)
So, WHY am I finally doing this you may ask yourself.... Or not, but I'm going to tell you anyway.
1. ME, MYSELF, & I. Yes, that's right. ME.
2. Tristan. I need to be the best me I can be for him. I need to set an example for him, and a healthy one. Not an example that sits on the couch eating crap and drinking soda.
3. Luke. He also deserves a better me. And maybe if he sees the changes I'm making he will make the changes too. I love him and we deserve the best together. <3
So, that's that. Day 1. The workout comes later because Tristan is about to wake from his nap and I used nap time for school work. I am going to be trying to work out in the mornings starting tomorrow. That way it won't be hanging over my head all day. :)
Until next time <3
Weight: 173.2
Goal weight: ??? -- I just want to be healthy and happy in my own skin. I want my clothes to fit better and I want to be thrilled to try on a top and not dread whether or not it will fit. The number in my head is 130, but we will find out whether or not that is attainable. For now my goal weight is: 159. Get me into the 150s and I'll feel better. ;) New goal weight after that is met. Baby steps.
Short term goals:
1. Get through the first 30 days of Power90.
2. Have to buy a new pair of jeans because my jeans got too big rather than too small.
3. Lessen soda intake.
4. Drink more water.
5. Lose the first 15 pounds.
You're probably thinking, "Really? Five short term goals seems like a lot.." Nope. All or nothing. And they are simple things. :)
Long term goals (For Power90 time period):
1. Finish Power90. ALL 90 DAYS!
2. Fit my favorite Jimmy'z jeans. (They're an 8. I'm in a 12 now. Totally doable... May even need to break out the AE 6's! ;) There's some wishful thinking, eh?)
3. Wear a bathing suit with confidence.... In public.
Totally can meet those goals. Long term right now is 90 days. I will feel more confident that I can meet them if they are more like short term goals with more time. ;)
So, WHY am I finally doing this you may ask yourself.... Or not, but I'm going to tell you anyway.
1. ME, MYSELF, & I. Yes, that's right. ME.
2. Tristan. I need to be the best me I can be for him. I need to set an example for him, and a healthy one. Not an example that sits on the couch eating crap and drinking soda.
3. Luke. He also deserves a better me. And maybe if he sees the changes I'm making he will make the changes too. I love him and we deserve the best together. <3
So, that's that. Day 1. The workout comes later because Tristan is about to wake from his nap and I used nap time for school work. I am going to be trying to work out in the mornings starting tomorrow. That way it won't be hanging over my head all day. :)
Until next time <3
Blue skies
Those new sneaks that I got for Christmas are still looking like new sneaks. That's not okay. So, today I'm tying them on my fat feet and taking Tristan to the park, then perhaps the beach. There is not a cloud to be had in the sky today. The sun is shining, so why not take advantage?
I spent this morning looking at a blog of a young girl who lost so much weight... by herself.... and now she is inspiring so many other young girls (and old fogies like myself ;)). She has a ton of great ideas and tips. I'm following them. She's a smart cookie, that girl.
I'm starting Power90 today from day one. I wanted to start P90X, but I know I'm not ready for it. I'm not excited for it. I know I can do Power90 because I did it..... For a little while at least.
Today I will measure, weigh, take before pictures, and set goals (both short term and long term). Today I will get off my fat butt and take Tristan to the park, push play on that Power90 and get sweating, drink water, take out my favorite pair of jeans I want to fit into again and hang them up where I can see them..... Today, I will believe that I can do this.
Summer is coming, and it's coming up fast. In a previous post I said that I wanted to be able to put on a bathing suit and swim for Tristan's 2nd birthday on June 10th. Now, we don't live in the same place anymore, but we will most likely still head toward water and hit a beach for his birthday and I WILL be confident in a bathing suit. My hopes aren't high. I'm not aiming for a bikini in two months, but a nice once piece would be nice.... One that doesn't involve maternity swim shorts as the bottoms (Yes, that is what I wore last summer......... Not pregnant, just fat..). So, perhaps today I will also pick out a bathing suit to treat myself to after two months of working out. That's it! My treat to myself on day 60 of Power90 is a bathing suit. By then I should have lost weight, toned up a bit, and feel okay about myself.
Well, I guess I better go shower and get us ready for the park! I will post measurements, weight, and goals later today. No before pictures until I have an after picture to go with it. ;)
<3
I spent this morning looking at a blog of a young girl who lost so much weight... by herself.... and now she is inspiring so many other young girls (and old fogies like myself ;)). She has a ton of great ideas and tips. I'm following them. She's a smart cookie, that girl.
I'm starting Power90 today from day one. I wanted to start P90X, but I know I'm not ready for it. I'm not excited for it. I know I can do Power90 because I did it..... For a little while at least.
Today I will measure, weigh, take before pictures, and set goals (both short term and long term). Today I will get off my fat butt and take Tristan to the park, push play on that Power90 and get sweating, drink water, take out my favorite pair of jeans I want to fit into again and hang them up where I can see them..... Today, I will believe that I can do this.
Summer is coming, and it's coming up fast. In a previous post I said that I wanted to be able to put on a bathing suit and swim for Tristan's 2nd birthday on June 10th. Now, we don't live in the same place anymore, but we will most likely still head toward water and hit a beach for his birthday and I WILL be confident in a bathing suit. My hopes aren't high. I'm not aiming for a bikini in two months, but a nice once piece would be nice.... One that doesn't involve maternity swim shorts as the bottoms (Yes, that is what I wore last summer......... Not pregnant, just fat..). So, perhaps today I will also pick out a bathing suit to treat myself to after two months of working out. That's it! My treat to myself on day 60 of Power90 is a bathing suit. By then I should have lost weight, toned up a bit, and feel okay about myself.
Well, I guess I better go shower and get us ready for the park! I will post measurements, weight, and goals later today. No before pictures until I have an after picture to go with it. ;)
<3
Thursday, April 12, 2012
50% off? Okay.
Oh, well what the FUCK!? How can one person be so incredibly lazy?! UGH.
Please excuse my language. I just don't know how one night I can feel so motivated then the next day buy some half price Easter candy......... And then eat a bag of it.
Today would've been my Grandmom's 84th birthday. I made cupcakes to celebrate. I don't regret eating one for her. I miss her like crazy every day of my life, but today especially. My mom would've been making her dinner and cake today. Nothing is the same without her. Whoever said, "It gets easier with time" is a liar. A big, fatter than me, liar!
I'm thinking of starting Power90 all over again. The results are gone and P90X doesn't excite me the way I thought it would. I know I can do Power90 because I did it. I just need to find it in whatever box it is in.
Ugh is the word of the day today...... UGH.
<3
Please excuse my language. I just don't know how one night I can feel so motivated then the next day buy some half price Easter candy......... And then eat a bag of it.
Today would've been my Grandmom's 84th birthday. I made cupcakes to celebrate. I don't regret eating one for her. I miss her like crazy every day of my life, but today especially. My mom would've been making her dinner and cake today. Nothing is the same without her. Whoever said, "It gets easier with time" is a liar. A big, fatter than me, liar!
I'm thinking of starting Power90 all over again. The results are gone and P90X doesn't excite me the way I thought it would. I know I can do Power90 because I did it. I just need to find it in whatever box it is in.
Ugh is the word of the day today...... UGH.
<3
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Easter Candy
Yes. Easter candy. That is what I have lived on for the past four days. Needless to say, I FEEL LIKE CRAP!! I'm doing a cleanse tomorrow. I can't stand feeling like this. Feeling like this is the best motivation I have ever felt.
I don't think I'm going to do P90X because I am just not excited about the workouts. If I'm not excited about it, I won't stick with it, then I will just feel like a failure for not keeping with it. So, I am going to do this: workout. Good ol' fashioned running, lifting weights, maybe throw in some Turbo Jam days and buy Zumba for the Wii for some variety. I know that this plan is NO P90X.... However, it is a bagillionmillion times better than what I am doing now.
I have support this time. Myself. I'm done. I'm done not having any clothes that fit or fit right. I'm done saying "Ugh. When I was skinny.." or "I feel gross.." I'm done feeling down ALL of the time because I feel disgusting. It's not fair to Luke that I don't feel sexy. It's not his fault I let myself get this way.
I have a pair of jeans. My favorite jeans. I got them in a going out of business sale at Jimmy'z (r.i.p. :( best store ever...) for super cheap and I wore them all of the time. They're a size 8. Perfect. I'm not trying to be an itty bitty... I'm a mom and my toddler thinks I'm his punching bag, I can't be too skinny!! I just want to be healthy. I am a "big 12" now. My 12's fit, but are snug. An 8 is doable. 6 is my ultimate goal, but 8 is where I will start. I am going to take those jeans out and hang them up where I can see them. A constant reminder of what I can be if I get off my butt and work for it.
No more complaining. It's my fault. I ate the fat. I ate the candy. I sat down and didn't move. I didn't work out. It's my fault and no one else's. From now on, I may only complain about sore muscles and I must do it with a smile on my face. :)
So, here we go. The new me..... or old me? No, new me. Old me was skinny, but not healthy. I just want to be healthy, and that is not what I am right now. I'm going to the store tomorrow to stock up on as many healthy snacks as my diminishing bank account will allow. (The lack of a job after a huge move really has me stressed...... Nothing a good work out won't fix, right?!)
I'm starting this "Healthy Me" off with a good night's sleep. Lots to do tomorrow, including spending the little guy's nap time walking/running on the treadmill... :)
...until then <3
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