I literally am sitting here laughing out loud. That P90X day one? The last day I did it. The post before that? One and done. Totally laughable.
August 12th I will be starting.. ahem, restarting.. P90X with an online accountability group........ and Luke!! :):) I hope he is for real and really wants to do this with me. I need to be healthy and happy.
I'm not going to write a long post just restating the crap I have before, just here to say that I'm back. And I can't keep thinking I'm going to fail, or not going to finish.... Or I won't. So, I need to. I have to do this.
It's time to change.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Thursday, April 26, 2012
P90X Day 1
Done and done! :)
I kicked the chair after I couldn't do the decline push ups. And I got SUPER frustrated with Ab Ripper X. I quit half way through for that reason and T woke from his nap and was not a fan of being in the basement. I am planning to attempt it again later tonight.
But, I tried! Chest and back is done. Plyometrics tomorrow.
I kicked the chair after I couldn't do the decline push ups. And I got SUPER frustrated with Ab Ripper X. I quit half way through for that reason and T woke from his nap and was not a fan of being in the basement. I am planning to attempt it again later tonight.
But, I tried! Chest and back is done. Plyometrics tomorrow.
One and Done?
That's probably what you all think of me. I'm one and done. I worked out once and now I'm done. In all honesty, I have no idea what my major malfunction is. I felt amazing after Sculpt1-2 last week. I never got Sweat1-2 in. Oy vey...
Today I start over. Again.
Today I start over. Again.
Speaks volumes to me. I should print that picture out and hang it everywhere in my place.
I'm starting over; however, not with Power90. I'm going for it. I'm going all in. P90X. That's right, P90X. THE P90X. I have to prove it to myself that I can do something with myself..... And finish it! Summer is getting closer and closer, which means I will start getting hot in jeans and tshirts and hoodies. I'm eventually going to need to fit my fat butt into some shorts and a tank top. The way I look now, I won't be doing that. I won't subject the kind people of Cape Cod to that awful sight. So, I'm going to make myself summer ready.
Starting today with Shoulders and Arms.
Day 1 of 90. Here we go!
Tuesday, April 17, 2012
Sweat.
"I would rather be covered in sweat at the gym than covered in clothes at the beach"
I saw this quote on Pinterest early this morning. I took Tristan to the beach today. It is absolutely GORGEOUS outside. Upper 70s, sunshine, a few clouds to break it up just enough, on the beach there was a nice breeze to cool off the sun..... PERFECTION. And I was hot as hell because I was wearing capris and a t-shirt. I could've been in a bathing suit today, or at least shorts and a tank top. But no, I'm too fat and gross to subject the public to that.
There is no greater motivation than that feeling I felt today.
So, we got home from the beach and Tristan went straight to bed. I had a lunch of tuna salad on two mini whole wheat bagels with 1/2 slice of fat free american cheese on each sandwich, with a side of SkinnyPop popcorn (my new favorite!!). Then I started reading for school on the deck. All I could think of was how I could be doing this in a bathing suit catching some sun, instead I was sweating.... again. So, instead of whining about it anymore I got up off my ass. Tied my still too new looking sneaks on my feet, grabbed Power90, grabbed my dumbells from my car and headed to the basement. I let Tony Horton have his way with me. It hurt to walk back up the stairs from that workout, I needed two hands to hold my cup of water, and it hurts to type right now. AND I LOVE IT.
SWEAT.
I saw this quote on Pinterest early this morning. I took Tristan to the beach today. It is absolutely GORGEOUS outside. Upper 70s, sunshine, a few clouds to break it up just enough, on the beach there was a nice breeze to cool off the sun..... PERFECTION. And I was hot as hell because I was wearing capris and a t-shirt. I could've been in a bathing suit today, or at least shorts and a tank top. But no, I'm too fat and gross to subject the public to that.
There is no greater motivation than that feeling I felt today.
So, we got home from the beach and Tristan went straight to bed. I had a lunch of tuna salad on two mini whole wheat bagels with 1/2 slice of fat free american cheese on each sandwich, with a side of SkinnyPop popcorn (my new favorite!!). Then I started reading for school on the deck. All I could think of was how I could be doing this in a bathing suit catching some sun, instead I was sweating.... again. So, instead of whining about it anymore I got up off my ass. Tied my still too new looking sneaks on my feet, grabbed Power90, grabbed my dumbells from my car and headed to the basement. I let Tony Horton have his way with me. It hurt to walk back up the stairs from that workout, I needed two hands to hold my cup of water, and it hurts to type right now. AND I LOVE IT.
SWEAT.
90 days from today is July. That is half way through summer. I have to push hard. I need results soon. I'll be using our treadmill as well as Power90.
I'm going to decorate our basement with an old bikini, a pair of shorts, and the pair of jeans I'm determined to wear again.
NO EXCUSES.
<3
Sunday, April 15, 2012
Well..
So, you may be wanting to ask me, "How are the workouts going, Lauren?" Well..
They're not.
Excuses. Yesterday we went to the Zooquarium with Tristan (super fun, by the way!) We all had a blast. Then we went to the beach. It was gorgeous. We all took our shoes off and put our feet in the water. Tristan thought it was a great idea to put his face in the water. I'm a proud Mommy because he is usually a sissy about stuff like that and when it comes to the ocean, I don't need to have a sissy. I LOVE swimming in the deep blue. ;) Anyway, we came home and sat on our bums for a while while Tristan napped (my designated workout time..... oops.) and ordered lunch. Oops. Pizza. It was delish, though. No lie. We couldn't take sitting anymore so we walked the mall and wore the little guy out some more.
Today is supposed to be another gorgeous day and even warmer than yesterday. I'll probably try to find a walking trail and take Tristan out again. The only problem is this: he hates being stuck in a stroller. He's an explorer, especially outside. So, walking at a toddler's pace is doing nothing for losing weight. Okay, it's better than sitting on the couch, but I'm not working up a sweat and getting my heart pumping.
Luke took a picture of me yesterday. I saved it on the computer and titled it, "Sick.jpg"
Sick.
They're not.
Excuses. Yesterday we went to the Zooquarium with Tristan (super fun, by the way!) We all had a blast. Then we went to the beach. It was gorgeous. We all took our shoes off and put our feet in the water. Tristan thought it was a great idea to put his face in the water. I'm a proud Mommy because he is usually a sissy about stuff like that and when it comes to the ocean, I don't need to have a sissy. I LOVE swimming in the deep blue. ;) Anyway, we came home and sat on our bums for a while while Tristan napped (my designated workout time..... oops.) and ordered lunch. Oops. Pizza. It was delish, though. No lie. We couldn't take sitting anymore so we walked the mall and wore the little guy out some more.
Today is supposed to be another gorgeous day and even warmer than yesterday. I'll probably try to find a walking trail and take Tristan out again. The only problem is this: he hates being stuck in a stroller. He's an explorer, especially outside. So, walking at a toddler's pace is doing nothing for losing weight. Okay, it's better than sitting on the couch, but I'm not working up a sweat and getting my heart pumping.
Luke took a picture of me yesterday. I saved it on the computer and titled it, "Sick.jpg"
Sick.
See? Sick. Sure, I'm not obese, but I sure do feel like it. So all of that said....
1. I'm going to find a walking trail today and take Tristan for a walk.
2. I'm going to workout during his nap time. No excuses.
3. I'm going to eat healthy and drink water.
Three goals for today. Attainable.
<3
Friday, April 13, 2012
Day 1.
Day 1 of 90.... For this challenge at least. On a cheesier note: day 1 of the rest of my life. Now that the corniness is out of the way.....
Weight: 173.2
Goal weight: ??? -- I just want to be healthy and happy in my own skin. I want my clothes to fit better and I want to be thrilled to try on a top and not dread whether or not it will fit. The number in my head is 130, but we will find out whether or not that is attainable. For now my goal weight is: 159. Get me into the 150s and I'll feel better. ;) New goal weight after that is met. Baby steps.
Short term goals:
1. Get through the first 30 days of Power90.
2. Have to buy a new pair of jeans because my jeans got too big rather than too small.
3. Lessen soda intake.
4. Drink more water.
5. Lose the first 15 pounds.
You're probably thinking, "Really? Five short term goals seems like a lot.." Nope. All or nothing. And they are simple things. :)
Long term goals (For Power90 time period):
1. Finish Power90. ALL 90 DAYS!
2. Fit my favorite Jimmy'z jeans. (They're an 8. I'm in a 12 now. Totally doable... May even need to break out the AE 6's! ;) There's some wishful thinking, eh?)
3. Wear a bathing suit with confidence.... In public.
Totally can meet those goals. Long term right now is 90 days. I will feel more confident that I can meet them if they are more like short term goals with more time. ;)
So, WHY am I finally doing this you may ask yourself.... Or not, but I'm going to tell you anyway.
1. ME, MYSELF, & I. Yes, that's right. ME.
2. Tristan. I need to be the best me I can be for him. I need to set an example for him, and a healthy one. Not an example that sits on the couch eating crap and drinking soda.
3. Luke. He also deserves a better me. And maybe if he sees the changes I'm making he will make the changes too. I love him and we deserve the best together. <3
So, that's that. Day 1. The workout comes later because Tristan is about to wake from his nap and I used nap time for school work. I am going to be trying to work out in the mornings starting tomorrow. That way it won't be hanging over my head all day. :)
Until next time <3
Weight: 173.2
Goal weight: ??? -- I just want to be healthy and happy in my own skin. I want my clothes to fit better and I want to be thrilled to try on a top and not dread whether or not it will fit. The number in my head is 130, but we will find out whether or not that is attainable. For now my goal weight is: 159. Get me into the 150s and I'll feel better. ;) New goal weight after that is met. Baby steps.
Short term goals:
1. Get through the first 30 days of Power90.
2. Have to buy a new pair of jeans because my jeans got too big rather than too small.
3. Lessen soda intake.
4. Drink more water.
5. Lose the first 15 pounds.
You're probably thinking, "Really? Five short term goals seems like a lot.." Nope. All or nothing. And they are simple things. :)
Long term goals (For Power90 time period):
1. Finish Power90. ALL 90 DAYS!
2. Fit my favorite Jimmy'z jeans. (They're an 8. I'm in a 12 now. Totally doable... May even need to break out the AE 6's! ;) There's some wishful thinking, eh?)
3. Wear a bathing suit with confidence.... In public.
Totally can meet those goals. Long term right now is 90 days. I will feel more confident that I can meet them if they are more like short term goals with more time. ;)
So, WHY am I finally doing this you may ask yourself.... Or not, but I'm going to tell you anyway.
1. ME, MYSELF, & I. Yes, that's right. ME.
2. Tristan. I need to be the best me I can be for him. I need to set an example for him, and a healthy one. Not an example that sits on the couch eating crap and drinking soda.
3. Luke. He also deserves a better me. And maybe if he sees the changes I'm making he will make the changes too. I love him and we deserve the best together. <3
So, that's that. Day 1. The workout comes later because Tristan is about to wake from his nap and I used nap time for school work. I am going to be trying to work out in the mornings starting tomorrow. That way it won't be hanging over my head all day. :)
Until next time <3
Blue skies
Those new sneaks that I got for Christmas are still looking like new sneaks. That's not okay. So, today I'm tying them on my fat feet and taking Tristan to the park, then perhaps the beach. There is not a cloud to be had in the sky today. The sun is shining, so why not take advantage?
I spent this morning looking at a blog of a young girl who lost so much weight... by herself.... and now she is inspiring so many other young girls (and old fogies like myself ;)). She has a ton of great ideas and tips. I'm following them. She's a smart cookie, that girl.
I'm starting Power90 today from day one. I wanted to start P90X, but I know I'm not ready for it. I'm not excited for it. I know I can do Power90 because I did it..... For a little while at least.
Today I will measure, weigh, take before pictures, and set goals (both short term and long term). Today I will get off my fat butt and take Tristan to the park, push play on that Power90 and get sweating, drink water, take out my favorite pair of jeans I want to fit into again and hang them up where I can see them..... Today, I will believe that I can do this.
Summer is coming, and it's coming up fast. In a previous post I said that I wanted to be able to put on a bathing suit and swim for Tristan's 2nd birthday on June 10th. Now, we don't live in the same place anymore, but we will most likely still head toward water and hit a beach for his birthday and I WILL be confident in a bathing suit. My hopes aren't high. I'm not aiming for a bikini in two months, but a nice once piece would be nice.... One that doesn't involve maternity swim shorts as the bottoms (Yes, that is what I wore last summer......... Not pregnant, just fat..). So, perhaps today I will also pick out a bathing suit to treat myself to after two months of working out. That's it! My treat to myself on day 60 of Power90 is a bathing suit. By then I should have lost weight, toned up a bit, and feel okay about myself.
Well, I guess I better go shower and get us ready for the park! I will post measurements, weight, and goals later today. No before pictures until I have an after picture to go with it. ;)
<3
I spent this morning looking at a blog of a young girl who lost so much weight... by herself.... and now she is inspiring so many other young girls (and old fogies like myself ;)). She has a ton of great ideas and tips. I'm following them. She's a smart cookie, that girl.
I'm starting Power90 today from day one. I wanted to start P90X, but I know I'm not ready for it. I'm not excited for it. I know I can do Power90 because I did it..... For a little while at least.
Today I will measure, weigh, take before pictures, and set goals (both short term and long term). Today I will get off my fat butt and take Tristan to the park, push play on that Power90 and get sweating, drink water, take out my favorite pair of jeans I want to fit into again and hang them up where I can see them..... Today, I will believe that I can do this.
Summer is coming, and it's coming up fast. In a previous post I said that I wanted to be able to put on a bathing suit and swim for Tristan's 2nd birthday on June 10th. Now, we don't live in the same place anymore, but we will most likely still head toward water and hit a beach for his birthday and I WILL be confident in a bathing suit. My hopes aren't high. I'm not aiming for a bikini in two months, but a nice once piece would be nice.... One that doesn't involve maternity swim shorts as the bottoms (Yes, that is what I wore last summer......... Not pregnant, just fat..). So, perhaps today I will also pick out a bathing suit to treat myself to after two months of working out. That's it! My treat to myself on day 60 of Power90 is a bathing suit. By then I should have lost weight, toned up a bit, and feel okay about myself.
Well, I guess I better go shower and get us ready for the park! I will post measurements, weight, and goals later today. No before pictures until I have an after picture to go with it. ;)
<3
Thursday, April 12, 2012
50% off? Okay.
Oh, well what the FUCK!? How can one person be so incredibly lazy?! UGH.
Please excuse my language. I just don't know how one night I can feel so motivated then the next day buy some half price Easter candy......... And then eat a bag of it.
Today would've been my Grandmom's 84th birthday. I made cupcakes to celebrate. I don't regret eating one for her. I miss her like crazy every day of my life, but today especially. My mom would've been making her dinner and cake today. Nothing is the same without her. Whoever said, "It gets easier with time" is a liar. A big, fatter than me, liar!
I'm thinking of starting Power90 all over again. The results are gone and P90X doesn't excite me the way I thought it would. I know I can do Power90 because I did it. I just need to find it in whatever box it is in.
Ugh is the word of the day today...... UGH.
<3
Please excuse my language. I just don't know how one night I can feel so motivated then the next day buy some half price Easter candy......... And then eat a bag of it.
Today would've been my Grandmom's 84th birthday. I made cupcakes to celebrate. I don't regret eating one for her. I miss her like crazy every day of my life, but today especially. My mom would've been making her dinner and cake today. Nothing is the same without her. Whoever said, "It gets easier with time" is a liar. A big, fatter than me, liar!
I'm thinking of starting Power90 all over again. The results are gone and P90X doesn't excite me the way I thought it would. I know I can do Power90 because I did it. I just need to find it in whatever box it is in.
Ugh is the word of the day today...... UGH.
<3
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Easter Candy
Yes. Easter candy. That is what I have lived on for the past four days. Needless to say, I FEEL LIKE CRAP!! I'm doing a cleanse tomorrow. I can't stand feeling like this. Feeling like this is the best motivation I have ever felt.
I don't think I'm going to do P90X because I am just not excited about the workouts. If I'm not excited about it, I won't stick with it, then I will just feel like a failure for not keeping with it. So, I am going to do this: workout. Good ol' fashioned running, lifting weights, maybe throw in some Turbo Jam days and buy Zumba for the Wii for some variety. I know that this plan is NO P90X.... However, it is a bagillionmillion times better than what I am doing now.
I have support this time. Myself. I'm done. I'm done not having any clothes that fit or fit right. I'm done saying "Ugh. When I was skinny.." or "I feel gross.." I'm done feeling down ALL of the time because I feel disgusting. It's not fair to Luke that I don't feel sexy. It's not his fault I let myself get this way.
I have a pair of jeans. My favorite jeans. I got them in a going out of business sale at Jimmy'z (r.i.p. :( best store ever...) for super cheap and I wore them all of the time. They're a size 8. Perfect. I'm not trying to be an itty bitty... I'm a mom and my toddler thinks I'm his punching bag, I can't be too skinny!! I just want to be healthy. I am a "big 12" now. My 12's fit, but are snug. An 8 is doable. 6 is my ultimate goal, but 8 is where I will start. I am going to take those jeans out and hang them up where I can see them. A constant reminder of what I can be if I get off my butt and work for it.
No more complaining. It's my fault. I ate the fat. I ate the candy. I sat down and didn't move. I didn't work out. It's my fault and no one else's. From now on, I may only complain about sore muscles and I must do it with a smile on my face. :)
So, here we go. The new me..... or old me? No, new me. Old me was skinny, but not healthy. I just want to be healthy, and that is not what I am right now. I'm going to the store tomorrow to stock up on as many healthy snacks as my diminishing bank account will allow. (The lack of a job after a huge move really has me stressed...... Nothing a good work out won't fix, right?!)
I'm starting this "Healthy Me" off with a good night's sleep. Lots to do tomorrow, including spending the little guy's nap time walking/running on the treadmill... :)
...until then <3
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Bucket List
Back from a LONG weekend of lots of traveling. With no energy, I am trying to get caught up on the school work I didn't and couldn't do this past weekend.
We started the weekend visiting my family near Philly. Then off to Cape Cod, MA for a job interview for Luke. They made an offer, but he couldn't accept on the spot. We have decided he will negotiate for moving costs and as long as we can: 1. Have help with moving costs, and 2. Find a place we can afford.... We are leaving PA and moving on to MA! :) I am beyond super excited I can't even explain it. I am a beach bum to say the least. I get this feeling around the water and sand that I just can't explain. The owner of the company Luke will be working at took us on a tour of the area and while driving around he stopped at a few different beaches and he would just sit and stare at the water.. I knew we would get along with this guy! He said at one point, "I don't know what it is about the beach. It's like there are some kind of weird ions coming off of the water that just make everything feel okay." ...YUP! I couldn't agree more. :)
It also seems like a great place to raise kids. The school system seems good from what they told us and they said they would help us find doctors, day care, a job for me, a home... the works. They're so kind.
I am just too excited for this change! :) I feel like I will be able to take a deep breath as soon as there is an agreement settled upon between Luke and the owner... Even if that does mean packing, hiring movers, finding a place to live sight unseen, finding a new job......... but that's okay... it will all be worth it. No question in my mind. :)
Still haven't started P90X. I can give you my list of excuses, but I will spare you. There will never be a "good time" to start. I'm catching up with and finishing some school work today, probably (hopefully) unpacking some, (hopefully) cleaning a little, and catching up on sleep I've missed out on all weekend. I will most likely be starting P90X tomorrow. I can't be moving to the beach in the Spring looking like this!! ;)
The lions were SO close!! Best zoo trip I've ever had! :)
Family photo :)
The beginning, so still loving it..
Watching the otters play
Trying for a family photo with the bears... :)
Saturday, February 11, 2012
"Graduation Day"
That's what today is... Graduation day. Day 90 of my 90 day fitness challenge. I am not anywhere near where I wanted to be, or where I could be. However, since my last posts I have found the happy Lauren who isn't so down on herself. So, that being said, I will send my results in for the challenge, get my t-shirt, and wear it while I do P90X.
Yup, I said it. P90X. You're thinking I'm crazy, right? I couldn't even keep with Power90, how am I going to keep with P90X? Well, I can't say I'm going to work out every single time. But why should that stop me?
I was talking with my coach on our team site the other day and I was telling her how I've come through "the darkness" and am feeling better about everything. I've been taking a little St. John's Wort and it seems to be helping a lot. Still not 100%, but I'm getting there. I was telling her how I'm doing this for my son. He is my why. How could he not be? Everything I do, I do for him. He is my reason for living, so why wouldn't he be my reason for living well? Makes sense, right? :)
We have some exciting things going on with our little family right now (don't get any crazy ideas here...)! I'm very excited about an opportunity my fiance has and I'm hoping it pulls through and everything works out!
Well, I haven't taken my last day measurements yet. When I do, I will post them here along with my "Before & After" pictures. And this "After" picture will be my "Before" picture on Monday. I'm not finished. I never want to be finished. I can always better myself. It's all for my little guy.
Oh, and my brother and his girlfriend had their baby!!! Meet my nephew, Declan Reece <3
Until next time.. :)
Yup, I said it. P90X. You're thinking I'm crazy, right? I couldn't even keep with Power90, how am I going to keep with P90X? Well, I can't say I'm going to work out every single time. But why should that stop me?
I was talking with my coach on our team site the other day and I was telling her how I've come through "the darkness" and am feeling better about everything. I've been taking a little St. John's Wort and it seems to be helping a lot. Still not 100%, but I'm getting there. I was telling her how I'm doing this for my son. He is my why. How could he not be? Everything I do, I do for him. He is my reason for living, so why wouldn't he be my reason for living well? Makes sense, right? :)
Honestly, how could you not want
to be the best you could be when
this little guy is counting on you!?
We have some exciting things going on with our little family right now (don't get any crazy ideas here...)! I'm very excited about an opportunity my fiance has and I'm hoping it pulls through and everything works out!
Well, I haven't taken my last day measurements yet. When I do, I will post them here along with my "Before & After" pictures. And this "After" picture will be my "Before" picture on Monday. I'm not finished. I never want to be finished. I can always better myself. It's all for my little guy.
Oh, and my brother and his girlfriend had their baby!!! Meet my nephew, Declan Reece <3
He looks just like my brother :)
Until next time.. :)
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Am I INSAAAANE!?
Here I am, 11 days after my last post.............. STILL NOT DOING ANYTHING! AYE!!
I'm stuck in a vicious circle...... I feel gross and fat and awful about myself so I don't workout, even though I know for a fact it will fix a majority of my major malfuncions these days!
School is crazy. My first class is a communications class. Gag me! I didn't major in communications for a reason.. I hate it. And for the most part, I hate communicating with people! Haha
I joined the YMCA. I need to start training for real for my run that is in May, and I know I won't go outside and walk and then run when its freezing cold, snowy and icy. Yuck. I hate the winter. I went once so far and walked the track for 30 minutes just like my training guide said to do to get started. I was on the track with two older gentlemen..... RUNNING PAST ME! I felt like dirt because of it. But, I continued walking and got lost in my music. I haven't been back because..... [insert excuses here]. One day I really couldn't go because the roads were just awful and I wanted to get the kiddo from day care before they got any worse. His safety comes before me walking for thirty minutes.
This weekend I have been home visiting my family. My brother's girlfriend's baby shower was today. I can't wait to meet my nephew. I will be in my car faster than I can say "I'm coming!" when I find out she's in labor. My brother means the WORLD to me, and the fact that he is having a son just puts me right on top of the world. :) I digress...... Tomorrow I am headed back to Warren and also have a project due for school. So, Tuesday (exactly one week from my first 30 minute walk.....) I will be back at the YMCA after work to walk.
This week is going to be insane. It is the last week of this awful communications course and on top of it I will have an orientation to teaching course. Yikes..... YIKES. Buuuuut, I am bound and determined to find time and energy to workout. My size 12s I was so excited about at Christmas time are already getting a little snug. I'm NOT okay with that. Especially since I wasn't even okay with the fact that fitting into a size 12 excited me. UGH.
Hopefully it's not another 11 days before I post again....... And I hope I come bearing good news next time.
I'm stuck in a vicious circle...... I feel gross and fat and awful about myself so I don't workout, even though I know for a fact it will fix a majority of my major malfuncions these days!
School is crazy. My first class is a communications class. Gag me! I didn't major in communications for a reason.. I hate it. And for the most part, I hate communicating with people! Haha
I joined the YMCA. I need to start training for real for my run that is in May, and I know I won't go outside and walk and then run when its freezing cold, snowy and icy. Yuck. I hate the winter. I went once so far and walked the track for 30 minutes just like my training guide said to do to get started. I was on the track with two older gentlemen..... RUNNING PAST ME! I felt like dirt because of it. But, I continued walking and got lost in my music. I haven't been back because..... [insert excuses here]. One day I really couldn't go because the roads were just awful and I wanted to get the kiddo from day care before they got any worse. His safety comes before me walking for thirty minutes.
This weekend I have been home visiting my family. My brother's girlfriend's baby shower was today. I can't wait to meet my nephew. I will be in my car faster than I can say "I'm coming!" when I find out she's in labor. My brother means the WORLD to me, and the fact that he is having a son just puts me right on top of the world. :) I digress...... Tomorrow I am headed back to Warren and also have a project due for school. So, Tuesday (exactly one week from my first 30 minute walk.....) I will be back at the YMCA after work to walk.
This week is going to be insane. It is the last week of this awful communications course and on top of it I will have an orientation to teaching course. Yikes..... YIKES. Buuuuut, I am bound and determined to find time and energy to workout. My size 12s I was so excited about at Christmas time are already getting a little snug. I'm NOT okay with that. Especially since I wasn't even okay with the fact that fitting into a size 12 excited me. UGH.
Hopefully it's not another 11 days before I post again....... And I hope I come bearing good news next time.
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
"Today is yesterday's tomorrow" [Nike]
.....Ain't that the truth. And on the 8th I said, "Tomorrow" ..then again on the 9th... and again yesterday. So, is today really my "tomorrow"?
It is.
I just finished reading my Power90 challenge group's 60 day results. Do I have results? Results for what? I haven't done anything. I probably have gained an inch here or there. I just got off the scale, and if I am remembering correctly, I have at least lost a pound or so. However, that could be because I haven't been getting off my fat bum and building my muscles.
I also found this....
No more "tomorrow." It's TODAY.
TODAY IS THE DAY.
It is.
I just finished reading my Power90 challenge group's 60 day results. Do I have results? Results for what? I haven't done anything. I probably have gained an inch here or there. I just got off the scale, and if I am remembering correctly, I have at least lost a pound or so. However, that could be because I haven't been getting off my fat bum and building my muscles.
I also found this....
Sure, it is from 2007 and that was almost 5 years ago; but, look at that bod. Look at that smile. Look at how comfortable I am in my skin. Not having to worry about who is judging me for being on the beach in a bathing suit. Not worrying about sucking it in (although, I think I was trying to here. Nothing to suck in though..). Not worrying about turning my body in such a way to "trick" the camera from making me look like I should have an "Oversized Load" sign attached to my back and an escort truck with flashing yellow lights. That picture is my goal. Yes, it is a pre-child body and at this point probably just about impossible with my new curves.... it's not the body I'm after. It's the feeling. And in all honesty, it's the bikini.
We had our son's birthday party at a local state park that has a "beach." My fiance's brother in law was the one who took my son swimming because I didn't bring my bathing suit. Why would I? Too many people. I was just too big. Not this year. I'm having the party at the same park and swimming my heart out with my little guy!
For some extra accountability, I told my Wife that if she got up and ran in the morning, I would work out. She ran this morning. Instead of working out, I've been jerking around on Pinterest all morning. Not to mention I have school work I should be doing. (Darn you, Pinterest!!) But, I gave the wife my word. Working out is what I shall do!
Now, I'm going to do my 60 day measurements and post them to my challenge group either today or tomorrow. I am tearing up just thinking about it. I make no sense to myself. If I KNOW that I will feel better about everything and I will be just all around happier and have more energy, why don't I just do it?! LAZY. No more "tomorrow." It's TODAY.
TODAY IS THE DAY.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
I want to be a MILF....
....For real. A MILF.
I'm no dummy, I know guys don't pass me on the street while I'm walking with my son and think, "Daaay-um! She's a hot mom!" I mean, I don't blame them (Although, my fiance's opinion is the only one that truly matters to me, it would be nice to get a stare or two again... I mean, I used to be attractive). I don't do my hair, I don't wear makeup, I usually have snot on my sleeve from wiping my son's nose when a tissue just isn't close enough, I rarely wear jeans and I live in yoga pants and hoodies.... I could go on and on. I'll spare you.
I don't do New Year's resolutions. They never stick. Instead, I'm just going to set goals for myself. Sure, sounds like the same thing, but the fact that it's not the "R-Word" makes me feel better about it. I feel like I have more of a chance of keeping up with my goals. Well, my goals are as follows:
1. Eat healthy. And continue to eat healthy!
2. Exercise. Lots of exercise. Real, 5-6 times a week, exercise.
3. Run. I am registered for a 5 mile run in May 2012. I haven't run since grade school. I bought new sneaks for this one.
4. Be more organized.
I feel like I have a million, but these are the biggies. The organization is last for a reason. I feel like once the rest of my life is in line, the organization will follow.
Almost 60 days ago I started the BeachBody Power90 challenge. AMAZING! I kept with it hardcore for the first 30 days and lost 10 inches off of my body and about 7 pounds. From day 30 to day 60 hasn't been so awesome because I haven't been doing my workouts. I am started anew tomorrow. I only have 30 days until the challenge is finito. YIKES!
If you were to ask me why I stopped if I had such great results after only 30 days, I could give you a laundry list of excuses.... all really coming down to one thing: I GOT LAZY! And I hate it.
So, here I am. Starting a blog to document my journey. Hopefully someone will stumble across it one day and think, "Hey, I can do that!" and join me in a healthy lifestyle. My journey starts now... with a good night's sleep to rest up for my fresh start tomorrow.
Until then.... <3
I'm no dummy, I know guys don't pass me on the street while I'm walking with my son and think, "Daaay-um! She's a hot mom!" I mean, I don't blame them (Although, my fiance's opinion is the only one that truly matters to me, it would be nice to get a stare or two again... I mean, I used to be attractive). I don't do my hair, I don't wear makeup, I usually have snot on my sleeve from wiping my son's nose when a tissue just isn't close enough, I rarely wear jeans and I live in yoga pants and hoodies.... I could go on and on. I'll spare you.
I don't do New Year's resolutions. They never stick. Instead, I'm just going to set goals for myself. Sure, sounds like the same thing, but the fact that it's not the "R-Word" makes me feel better about it. I feel like I have more of a chance of keeping up with my goals. Well, my goals are as follows:
1. Eat healthy. And continue to eat healthy!
2. Exercise. Lots of exercise. Real, 5-6 times a week, exercise.
3. Run. I am registered for a 5 mile run in May 2012. I haven't run since grade school. I bought new sneaks for this one.
4. Be more organized.
I feel like I have a million, but these are the biggies. The organization is last for a reason. I feel like once the rest of my life is in line, the organization will follow.
Almost 60 days ago I started the BeachBody Power90 challenge. AMAZING! I kept with it hardcore for the first 30 days and lost 10 inches off of my body and about 7 pounds. From day 30 to day 60 hasn't been so awesome because I haven't been doing my workouts. I am started anew tomorrow. I only have 30 days until the challenge is finito. YIKES!
If you were to ask me why I stopped if I had such great results after only 30 days, I could give you a laundry list of excuses.... all really coming down to one thing: I GOT LAZY! And I hate it.
So, here I am. Starting a blog to document my journey. Hopefully someone will stumble across it one day and think, "Hey, I can do that!" and join me in a healthy lifestyle. My journey starts now... with a good night's sleep to rest up for my fresh start tomorrow.
Until then.... <3
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